where are we going...

From,
A Creature of Your Creations,
Human Being,
Indian,
Tamilan,
Prabhakaran Subramanian.

To
The God,
Everywhere.

Dear God....

Yesterday - till now kind of a very disturbing day it was...... I just took it that way God as You send it to me...... had a lot of situation unpleasant

Morning it was 5:30 am started from chrompet to Iyer room... My Friend Raghavan was asking me to check his machine for the past one week and I cannot have any more excuse on restoring his machine....

As usual... when I got down on the street..... Found people walking on the road some for their health

Some for their work some for their home.... i was able to find different set of people... no one bothered me.... no one cared about anyone else... i have seen some of the faces before ... unlikely no one had a smile on another one.. It made me to realize am in Chennai once again....

Got on a bus reached tambaram... from tambaram took 5A bus to velachery early morning initially I sat on a seat.... next a person though it was early morning... I was sill sweating had very little resistance to temperature.... asked the other person to open the window and he wasn't able to open the window... as usual took a windows seat all alone... then came a black guy with milk CAN sat next to me.... as usual kept feeling the breeze coming through the window..... Thinking on what is next....

It was meydavaakam

Time was somewhere around 6:00 am

the bus got filled in completely full of crowd I was wondering where these people are traveling so early in the morning...

There came two people a man with child along with her wife....

As soon as the Milk man saw the child suffering in the hands of her father he just stood and gave him a seat...

I felt really good about the Milk man who gave him a seat ... though he looked black in physic his heart was filled with milk...

She was somewhere around 2 years old.... pretty looking wearing a frock painted on with my favorite color...

She was looking at me.... as if i came from some hell... i smiled at her she still doesn’t want to smile....

At times things don't happen the way I wish.... but it was still a pleasant morning traveled all the way towards veylacheri a old man ... got into the crowd it was palikarnai stop.... i was searching for the milk man and he got disappeared in the crowd... the old man was looking eagerly for a seat... i was looking at him i had just two stops ahead of velachery ...when i was trying to head out... to give him a seat.. he found a person on the front seat leaving his seat he placed his bag on the seat to occupy the seat a traditional way of Tamil nadu to get hold of a seat..... I saw the urge on his face to get the seat... but the person who was sitting next to the window got the seat for someone else though he had the bag in there.... I was able to see some pain on his face ... I stood and I was about to get him the place.... but the other person who was having the child in his hand wants his wife to sit on the seat so he was blocking the old man from sitting on the seat .. I was there watching the scene... the old man was literally begging for a seat. He said that he could not stand anymore ...... he literally said his leg was paining very badly.... a moment I was able to recall everything ... I still remember the milk man leaving the space for the person understanding his pain... I simply asked him ... ungalukaaga oruthar edam vitatha athukulara maranthuteengaley I don't know whether I had the right words to him ... but I went on him... he looked at me for a second by the time another person who was standing next to the old man said to him not to worry you will definitely find a seat a stop after the next one... I didn't even get a small response from the person who had a child..... and not a single person who were sitting wants to get him seat, knowing that he is suffering.... where are we going...

now the questions are...

I don't understand this many time ... milk man was able to realize the pain of the guy who had the child.... the man standing next to the old man was able to understand his pain.... how come it is possible for him to react so rude... that too after getting help from someone.... some at least realize the pain of others and leave space though they need a seat badly I have seen this from every single one of my friends....

I can’t even imagine someone responding that way

I can’t believe someone can think like that....

you created the milk man and the person who was standing next to the old man...

and it was you the one who created the rude person....

I don't know why I changed my seat at the beginning

I wish I should have not been included in such a scene....

actually you are the only reason for me to write this letter...

it can be a very small incident for many - but still it hurts........

believing your existence always and everywhere

Prabhakaran Subramanian

Letter To You GOD - It is the same World

Letter To You GOD - It is the same World

From,
A Creature of Your Creations,
Human Being,
Indian,
Tamilan,
Prabhakaran Subramanian.

To
The God,
Everywhere.

Dear God,

This is prabhakaran subramanian hope you know me am one among the million... I have not talked to you in person wish I get a chance i will have a lot of question for you.... this mail looks funny for many who read it... kind of a crazy thing people do at times ... don't know whether this mail gonna reach you or not... but am gonna write a lot to you .

To be very frank at my earlier ages i have called you many times and when you never came down to wipe my tears... I felt really bad about you and i still don't know whether you have felt my pain.... It was so painful as if I felt like i was cursed

I don't want to blame anyone here for anything happened in the past...

lets talk about something i wanted to get clarified ...

God this world is just one of your creation....

you should know a lot about it

I have met a lot of people in my life....

and the ultimate thing every one run for is just for the happinesses....

This is a world where you have made politicians who live happily killing people and you know this...

This is the same world where you have made the people to leave their life for politician... who never looks back him or looks back his family.... why he does that .. where was his happiness ... and what are you doing...


once again this the same world where i saw a tea master working day and night all day a week all day a month... for his brother to study well.... i never knew about him before... it was one night when i was dropped at chrompet gate
hope you know chrompet it is a two stop next to tambaram towards chennai...

as soon as he finds me he use to put me a coffee with more sugar.. he knew what i need and he never expected me to ask every day for more sugar in the coffee...

But i never knew what he needs..

i never wanted to know what he was .... he talked with me that night... he asked me which area i belong to told him about my native....

he asked me about my work told him about my job ....

i did ask him and he replied that he belongs to a village in madurai... and he said he works all days a week day and night for salary...

he asked me for a job for his brother he has completed ba literature in English .

he said he works so hard and he wants to find him a job so he can raise the family....

I dont know why he choose me there where other people who where getting down to their home....

why me? you know it right?

I said will try my best and asked him to tell his brother to email his resume to me... he was so happy to hear that..... happiness- believing there is a life in the near future

i have nothing much in my hand... i dont know how worthy am I....

I even felt bad if his brother not making it up how would he feel...

anyways you have the world where one suffers to find happiness by getting a life....

and it is the same world where a guy suffers to live with a girl for ever... he is too having more pain.... some people even leave their life in the name of love failure .without realizing there are people who are fighting to live..

how do you answer these people.... ? who do you feel more worthy...

you made me to realize how painful it would be if some one suffers to live...

but I have not done anything good up till now and there is no point in realizing it..

show me what is right , help me and give me the strength to complete my task what you have assigned.....

please do the needful am already short of time.



believing your existence always and everywhere

Prabhakaran Subramanian